This past 2 weeks has been a quite a stressful one for me. For this time round, I know at least the cause of it…. WORK….

New environment AGAIN~ supposely to be better… not too far… nearer….

I will milk it til the last drop before anythg happens… make it happen!! I must to pay all the bills… I must!!!

Came across these interesting sign during a trip to the zoo~

True?

I almost forgot that i have a blog.
I think mainly is the lack of pictures, lost thoughts and a blank mind that are stopping me from writing anything at all…

As we are coming to the last quarter of the year, I start to dig out what have I achieved over the past 9 months, whatever I set out to do, so call resolutions I have set upon myself.

Sad but true enough, there isn’t much I can safely say I am proud of or close to achieveing it. Feels like I wasted 3/4 of the year…. I should be glad I still have a job with  miserably decent pay.

My job involves in calculating daily other people’s pay. I roughly know what occupation command what kinda income. Sometimes I compare myself to them… its really quite a gap. Those that not doing so well get worse by the day, those that are well to do are getting even more well to do. Goes the saying “Poor is getting poorer, rich is getting richer”. What about those middle class? Well, most of them stays when they are.

Sometimes I wonder, in fact really curious those people that earns a whopping 20k to 30k monthly, how do they spend their money? Why isn’t it enough? Many will say, ” more you earn, more you spend”. True enough, thinking back on the 1st job I took when I step out from national service. My peanuts income of $750/mth back in year 2000 as a florist/delivery boy, was enough to put my thru the month. 2nd proper job with an income of $1,600, feeds me well and extra to even get me a small bike.

But now… with the income I take home hardly sees me thru the end of the month. Or issit that the pursue of better quality stuffs and greed brings us to the downfall.

I have been this company for 22 months now… moved 3 times. Hope this location brings me where I want n hope for. But somehow i feel that its just moving only without the direction…. up.

Only good thing about this place is nearer to home, I don’t have to fight with the horrendous traffic on PIE every evening. Feels like its a battle of life and death each time I go home from work. Phew~

Coming to work now, saves on petrol cost but increase on the stupid ERP charges…

ERP on the ECP : $1.25

ERP in the CBD : $1.25

Parking charges : $0.65

Total : $3.15/day

GOooooosh… I was really surprise how merciless LTA can be on us motorist. I ride a bike to save some money and also have the convenience of a car, but nooooo…it jus sucks every single cent you have. The Horror!!!

Gone were those days when you just need to use a $0.65 coupon and park at different open air carparks. Each time I enter a multi storey carpark, I have to  sadly see them take away my money in my cashcard without me able to do anything about it.

Something needs to be done….

How true… how true…

When we have the things we cannot have somehow, we want the things that we discarded the 1st place.

We are one big boundless bottomless pit…

Hungry for the things that we don’t know… in the end… end up having nothing at all…

what am i trying to say??

Beats the Shit out of me…

Recently, I seem to have problems getting a good sound nite sleep.

I am quite tired in the day…slept and wake up in the middle of the nite and could not go back sleep again.  Staring at the ceiling, looking at the four walls surrounding me making me claustrophobic at times.

Told myself numerous times that I need to go back to sleep. Twisting, turning, rolling left to right, changing sleeping positions, pillow becomes bolster, bolster become pillow, drinking milk, meditating, reading, smoking, counting sheeps doesn’t help alot.

Sometimes, I get alot of images in the head… once i close my eyes.. it all comes out.  Vivid ones, flashing by and disappear in a second ones, some even looks like someone took a torchlight and shine it into my eyes.

It just feels like i have alot of things going on in my head. Is there someone or something trying to tell me something? I do not understand anything that i am being told or hinted or see.

Oh man…  how do u sleep at nite… peacefully at least…

I need some peaceful sleep….

I need to get a freaking life man…

i cannot control the urge …. why do they have to invent such addictive games….

Tho it may seem weary n draggy as it may seems, it is still a choice. I hope yours started the way you want it to be and be happy abt it.

its a choice~

Its coming to Singapore AGAIN!! Yeeeeahhh!!

Their shows are simply AWESOME~  went to their show once few years back. Had a balcony seat then. For you guys whom you think might be interested…See Below…

After the show, you definitely will somehow feel like creating a tune of ur own hitting in whatever things you get your hands on…