Will be part of the hype and happening. Turn off everything in your home that require electricity….I will not be at home tho…hee~
Dismay of Today
Now, this present moment…. don’t know why but, i’m quite disturbed.
Mostly due to work, I am far from my target… not even close to smelling it. Not even the half way mark…HECK~ i just crossed the 25% mark!!! I don’t understand why also. Am I not hardworking enough? Am I doing the right things? Are those things I am doing a waste of time? My luck SUCKS!!!
Things just not going my way… 80% of my customers that walked in…SUCKED!! Transaction that went thru have problems with the database back in HQ! In the end things get delayed, I get the thrashing end from the customers! My immediate superiors are just sitting around getting paid for doing zilch but sucking up~
Its a dog eat dog world out there… if you don’t have what it takes… u can only eat shit…
Vain LiL Niece
She is such an angel~ She loves to pose for the camera. She comes up with her own words that cannot be found in the dictionary. MAybe she is at this lovable age. Once she gets older… maybe it would be a different story altogether.
So Cuuuuuuttttttteeeee………
Wiser?
As I sail thru the this destination… or rather journey of this existence, many things will happen without planning for it. Some might say “If fail to plan, you plan to fail”. Who the fuck actually plan to fail? Instead of wanting to be successful, I plan to sleep with the dogs out in the streets? Instead of planning to get rich fast, I see how fast can i squander my last $5 in my wallet to the game machine at the acrade? Instead of thinking ways to close that half a million dollar deal, I rather get another 5mins of sleep before i start work?
I don’t deny that there are such people who rather rot. But anyone whose in the common mind will somehow plan to have things work their way. Its just how effective is your plan or how your plan plans to screw u.
It has come to a point that I think i’m being emo here. Thinking the more older you get, you tend to ponder nonstop. I find myself pondering over many things but nothing gets done or solved or any closure. Main reason is that I don’t have answers or rather the perfect solutions to them. So sometimes I rather let it stay undone than finishing it half fucked. I think its perfectly normal I guess. Doesn’t everyone have their moment of sitting on the fence? More than often for me i guess….
And when I suddenly decided to stand on one particular side of the fence, I will take an occasional glance on the other side. Hmmm… maybe that side seems greener. Sooner than I expected, i find myself sitting on the fence again. Its just WRONG. I am good at what I do…which is sitting on the fence. I am sure I will not be alone sitting on it. I am not planning to fail…nor failing to plan… just that …I haven’t got the perfect plan yet.
Do I really have to get somewhere? be someone great? do great things to change lives? win a noble prize? to come across as a successful person? someone for others to look up to? My sorry ass doesn’t need any sympathy to get thru the day.
Guess by the end of the day… its a choice. A choice that I promised myself that I will choose and fulfill. There will be negative energy n obstacles along the way. I mean sometimes its ok to just sit on the fence to wait for a idiot wiser person to clear it and then I follow. Sometimes only la…
As much as i would like to think i am wiser or more experienced, there are still many things in my life that I duno what or why the hell am I doing it. No self pity here but still finding out my purpose here with a steady pace.
Hope everyone find out theirs too….. 
Jason MrAZ-ed Me
AaaaaAaaHhhhHh~
This has been a long awaited concert for me. 5th March 2009 Indoor Stadium~ Ok…I think i going be like a school girl when they sees their favourite singer.
” AAAAAAaaAaAaaaHHHhhhHHhhhHhhhhh!!!!” OMG~OMG~OMg~~!!!” So talented!! ” Jason!! I want have your baby!!” (abit too too much la) but hey! Its Jason Mraz~!! n Toca Rivera! AaaaaaaAaaAaaAaaaaHHhhhhHH!!! Screams~
It cannot be any more sweeter than going with my bunch of friends and Ms Yong~
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He opened his heavenly performance with a song from his latest album ” The Dynamo of Volition”. Subsequently with quite a number of songs from the new album, tho I was hoping there was more from his old albums. Oh yes, he did a collaboration with our local singer “Joi Chua” aka “Cai Chun Jia. Her initials sounds abit obsence. CCJ = CooCooJiao??
Recently when i pick up my guitar to strum, I only start off with his songs. Tho its almost impossible to have his voice and mimic the way he scats when i want to sing along with the strumming but it always enjoyable to play his songs.
It was a spectecular performance with his display of vocal range when he did the theatre singing bit during “MR Curiousity”. Along with the tight coordination with Toca Rivera… “FLAWLESS!” They are they kind who can just perform anywhere with just a guitar and a a set of Bongos drums.
Enough raving. One sold out concert that i would wanna remember for a long time. He is coming back next year my friends… I will go for the most exp tickets! And ya, sorry Val, I didnt see you coming my direction, I didnt notice you til you called me, partly cos you were in a dress!!! Yes!! Dress!! 1st time i see you in a dress~~ Hahahha~~Meantime, you can check out his blog at http://freshnessfactorfivethousand.blogspot.com/
Aaaaaahhhhhhhh!!! Screams!!! Shouts!!! Feeeee U Weeeeeee~~@@
How it works…
Well… As some of you guys might know that I don’t like to talk about my mother in a face to face conversation. I have blogged about my mum long time ago on how challenging it can be just sharing the same roof with her.
She has the Alzheimer’s condition. A common problem with the older generation. A common form of dementia. Its incurable. Yes… its INCURABLE. Its usually diagnosed in people over 65 years old. My mum is turning 68 this year. She had this problem for about almost 3 years now.
Just a quick run thru on what are the signs and causes Alzheimer’s disease?
1) Age-related.
2) Memory loss
3) stress manifestation (Mood swings)
4) Memories that are stuck at certain period of time, which is to mean he or she can only remember things that happened a few or many years. Whatever happened at the present moment or few days ago, he or she will not remember. (later stages of the diseases)
5) Depression
Many may mistaken it for stress or just a hard day at work.
Over this span of these 3 years… she has gone for 2 eye operations. She is not blind but she see things in silhouettes form, blurry shadows and she is very sensitive to bright lights. Due to her retinal was detached from one of her eye. The other eye…has myopia over 1000 degrees.
So maybe I would just like to share my experiences and how we can cope if ever you find yourelf in such a situation. I hope you will never find yourself in such plight.
Juat a warning, it can give you extreme pressures especially if you are the caregiver. Ranging from emotionally, psychological, financially or socially.
How can it be cope?
Sharing based my personal experiences…
Firstly, ACCEPT the fact. There is absolutely nothing you can do to cure it. It is not the end of your world. Take it as they’ve brought you in this world as healthy as you can be. Now it is time to return the favor.
Secondly, PATIENCE + ENDURANCE. We are talking about those kinda patience that “you know your life is at risk cos he or she forgots to turn off the gas not fire and walks away and after you found out, she not only denys doing it but turning it around to blame it on you“ kinda patience. (Daily)
If you can manage well in these 2 conditions…my friend, you will go a long way.
Thirdly, showing them CARE and CONCERN that they needed cos they might not be capable of going to toilet or simply spreading jam on bread or wear clothes properly, even tho they might not remember a damn thing you’ve ever done for them 1 second later. Even if they turn around and start scolding you. No Appreciation needed. It goes back to the second point again. PATIENCE.
Fourthly, DISCIPLINE. Its discipline to keep your personal things properly. Safe and locked away. Cos they might take your handphone or whatever expensive stuff and misplace it somewhere when you needed it the most. After finding it, no use to question them, cos they will turn around and blame it on you for not putting your things properly. PATIENCE again comes to play. No matter how you get angry or whatever angry words that come out from your mouth, the situation and condition of the sick…will still be..the same.
Finally, keep yourself healthy mentally and physically, cos the chances of getting Alzhimer or any other illness will be greatly reduced. You never know when you find yourself having this sickness and no one is there for you.
I am still practising the above every freaking single day. And of cos KUDOS to my father who have been the major key player in taking care of her. I not saying I had it the worst but… love your parents. They will not be around forever. At least you are here able to feel whatever you are feeling rite now reading my piece of crap… rite? Thanks to your parents who brought you here.
