Sick of those lines…

Recently, I find myself repeating this lines more often then ever… all the name of trying hard to hit my target. Only way and the best way to do it better is make more freaking calls. I am really sick of hearing myself… i almost literally can see the words coming out from my mouth, all lined up….while my mind is somwhere else. Its almost like auto freaking pilot…

“Are you employed by a company or you are self employed?”

“Have you been with your present company for more than 6 months?”

“Is your current salary more than $1,600?”

” Are you between the age of 24-55 years old?”

” You need to prepare these documents in order to apply, does your bills have any overdue amount?”

Blah Blah Blah Blah……

Sometimes I will just roll my eyes 10,000 times at myself… I feel like a answering machine.

We have our fair share of crappy customers and our crappy self handling them…Here is what I want to share with my crappy customers and sometimes crappy self….

 

Hhmmmmm…..doesn’t putting up the finger makes life more easier to carry on?? I would very much like to believe it will….

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Money or your life

The subject on money never fails to dampen my mood.

Only time when it lifts my mood is when i strike on some 4D or TOTO.

Having enough is never enough,

Having excess is never enough too…

Having not enough is almost near death…

Make me high~

 

On brandy and…………

Cigarettes from all over the nations…. *********

My Buds…

 

Face Food (2)

OOoooooOOooOOooHHoooccchiMama….calamari…….!!!

My cute little niece…

Yes… She is smiling… I ask her to smile… and all she can do is this…

So damn Cute!!!!

Work hard?

Mgr : I can see all of the branches are not doing so good except for  YSN. She is very hardworking.

Me: Actually alot of us are working our ass off, losing sleep over this period but you never notice only.

Mgr: But her results are showing.

Me: Being result orientated is the main part… but NOT every part. We all worked very hard based on the number of application that was sent in. Its like for example, I work very hard and do research to predict the 4D that is coming out 1st prize on Sat. I work very hard to go to the luckiest 4D seller, I don’t use any form of transport going there to buy instead i walk fro Pasir Ris to Tuas to buy just to show my sincerity… Does it gaurantee me 1st prize the same weekend??

Mgr: Times are bad…so you must bring in double the amount of applications to handle the high rejection rates…Focus Focus FOCUS! Manage your customer expectations and capabilities and things will be better.

Me: (thinking with angst in me not actually saying it loud) ~ I want challenge you to sit at my outlet for one week… i do average of 15 applications a week… I want to see you bring in 30 applications in one week!! at my outlet! Focusing on customers’ expectations and capabilities does not means will bring in good numbers. What customer’s expectations you talking about?? Do you understand the words that are actually coming out from you mouth?? What does customer’s expectation gotta do with numbers?? What capabilities you talking about??  You means his credit history? His grade F went walked in…it doesn’t mean after “focusing or managing”  his capabilities will turn him into a grade “A” customer. His or her quality can be changed but not immediate!!

I think YOU are the one who are focus!!! NOT US!!!

I am actually wasting my time blogging n writing about such “NO SUBSTANCE” conversation….

pls forgive me god… for there are many different “other” people…. i must learn to accept things i cannot change…

she and me…

 

 

For many people whom have been asking… this is she…

The one that gave many happy times when times are not…

My mum …(part 2)

As I stepped into my house, i knew my mum had a check up for her eye this morning. Dad says she have to have her cateract removed…. small operation. There was another operation before this which her retinal got detached. The operation had made her hospitalised for 2 weeks and I lost my job for that. Hopefully after this operation she can see better. So that she can see the how this family had changed over the 22 months. See how broken down my dad is. See how messy the house is right now. See how she burnt the kitchen drawer. See how she she drowned my dad’s plants… how she magically make our clothes and underwear dissappear… how she turns on the stove and leave it on, how she on the tap and leave it running, how one minute is all it takes to turn the house upside down, how she messed up her room every single nite to pack her bag so that she thinks she can go to work the next day…how she makes my live, our lives and her own live a hard pill to swallow. Too many things…too many. She does the most ridiculous things but not wanting to admit and happily shunned away saying its our fault. She would use the same excuse to argue with us ” I love u all so much but you do these kinda things to me??” “Throw me into the seas la” ” I didnt even touch your things why you say i did??” Truth is, we watch her do it many many times in front of our eyes and she will forget the next second. She just keeps forgetting…. and forgetting and forgetting…

 Simply refuse to hear reasoning. Doctor says its a matter of time when she starts crapping all over the house…. I dread that day. My dad has almost given up reasoning with her. I think I have quite some time ago…given up. Some friends just told me its because my family has no other woman… not so much of the care n support from a female. Well… maybe, just maybe… male are not known to feel. We are just build to solve.

 

Hope she can see the state that she is in now. Funny thing is that when she know she have to go for cateract operation, she would ask

“tomorrow how to go to work like that? ” Although this sentence had been repeated daily for the past 1yr 10mths, it still hurts but you know you can do nothing about it…absolutely nothing. Something she loves doing but cannot do with her present conditions.

Nowadays i just can’t stand staying at home…Not a day pass without hearing my mum quarreling with my dad cos she did somethg absurd. My mum is like a blade stuck in my head, chest and ear. If I pull it out, I will bleed to death…If I leave it in… it would hurt so bad that i til i want to die. “Damn Me!” for saying such bad things about you.

But ….PLEASE!! PLEASE!! Make her stop all these nonsense, make her stop thinking that money is everything all the time, stop blaming us for every single thing that goes missing and stop saying that we steals her money(which of cos we do not), stop being so self centered and think “I’m ur mum, you have to do what i say!!”  Make her realise she need help from us in order to help herself. I don’t want to be negative about my mum but sometimes its unbearable, yet at the same time I don’t wanna whine to my friends or close ones… so this blog is where i can “throw out the thrash”. Clean my system abit.

I wish her well…i wish her good… I wish she can just wakes up and be normal again…

(Love you mum, appreciate her before its too late for her to realise it…)

Curry Stained Fingers

Went to Muthu’s Curry last night to have their famous Fish Head Curry. To our disappointment… It didn’t turn out as ” Power” as what alot of media had said it. Maybe we went on a “off peak” day.

The curry was just warm, not piping hot. I was expecting it to SMOKINGGGGG!! But it was just a “blah”. Only thing we found it shiok was the Masala Chicken. ” POWER!” As much as i wanted to blend into the crowd by using my hands to eat…i didn’t expect the smell of the curry stays on my fingers til NOW!!! 15th Oct 2008 1740hrs… My fingers still smell of their curry!!! Despite washing it numerous times.

Generally the the taste of the fish head curry was average instead of ” HooochiMama”. But I should say, beer is a excellent choice to accompany the curry.  ~

Next try ~ NONYA FISH HEAD CURRY